Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy?

Unfortunately it's NOT the latter.

Today is a day that could hold a new beginning or mark a complete end. A stark contrast, yes. And I'm not sure which one would be better.

I have my ex coming to mine tonight to "talk about things." Should be interesting. Depending on how I go about it of course. I could sit him down, tell him he is a COMPLETE idiot and not fall short of letting him know that wrapping himself up in his blanket of naivety isn't going to score him any points as a long term solution on his 'Priority list of Life.' I could tell him that the reason we are no longer together is BECAUSE of one of his so called 'friends' aka Bitchy McSlagface who I would really quite like to push in front of a bus. And I could tell him I don't need him, because I don't.

Or, and this one is probably most likely, I can tell him that I don't need him but I do WANT him and I want to give us another chance. Like a big fat crumbly loser.

Oh why oh why isn't life just simple. For once? Maybe? Perhaps one day some guy will come along and sweep me off my feet, preferably take me to Nandos, and then I can just leave all of this crap in the past. I guess I will just have to keep my fingers crossed until then because if I'm truely honest (and you may not have guessed this..) I have had it up to here with uselss men. Or just men in general really. I'm just hoping tonight runs smoothly and doesn't end up with some kind of minor/possibly major injury to the groin (NOT mine might I add) and if he can explain himself without actually admitting that the only reason we split in HIS mind is because he is a complete man whore and he can't help but have slutbags talk to him like they're some sort of sad pathetic weirdos who are desperate for some male attention and don't care who they crap on to get it.

Wow. That's bitterness right there. But I suppose if that's what floats your boat then you can only be as pathetic as them and quite frankly, not something I can be arsed bothering with. Maybe it's just time to let sleeping dogs lie.

Anyway, enough of the cliches. I am a woman on a mission starting from today. A slow mission but a mission nontheless. A mission to prove to myself that actually, Love isn't JUST a four letter word. Watch this space...