Another one bites the dust

Yesterday didn't start well. Long story short, my ex told me he thinks we shouldn't talk to each other for a while. Which did upset me for a bit to be honest. I have known him for a long time, over 4 years now I think, and always kind of had a thing for him so I think maybe it's just habit for me to still love him now we aren't together. And it's not a habit I want to continue. So we are no longer speaking until further notice. I assume he just wants to clear his head as after telling me this he still said "I love you" which is highly annoying. Maybe in a few months or so when he has sorted himself out he will want to try again. Maybe he won't. Either way, I'm not waiting round for him to decide so I sent him a kind of 'goodbye' email saying as such. I also put that I think he just wanted to be the person he was before he left here to move to London for 2 years, that he is too young minded and his priorities are his friends and his social life. Which is ok, he is still young but he can't balance that and a committed relationship, it's either one or the other. And that one day he is bound to get bored because his friends will all move on, get married, have families and he'll HAVE to grow up. I was surprised I managed to write such a long email without once being nasty! But after that I deleted him as a contact and erased his number and all his messages from my phone.

After the whole scenario I actually realised I have been single for over a month now and I have done sod all about it but chase someone who wasn't worth chasing. So, as sad as it sounds, I went back onto a dating site I signed up with last year before I started seeing my ex. I started talking to a lovely guy. He can be 'guitar boy' because he is a musician in a band (nice) and he isn't too bad to look at either. He is older than me so thankfully more mature. I also started speaking to another guy who lives where my gay ex lives (although he doesn't know him, shame) and works just up the road from me. He's 'tattoo boy' because, well, he has tattoos. He added me to Facebook so I had a nosey through his pictures. And Oh. My. Freaking. GOD. He is friends with none other than Bitchy McSlagface! You couldn't make this stuff up. I spotted her ugly mug a mile off. I told him she was the person who eventually ended splitting me and my ex up and he asked why so I told him. And he said "Yeah, she's a bitch."which is exactly what my ex said about her. Happy days, nobody likes her, even her friends. So I am now currently texting two guys. Way to take my mind off things. Who knows, maybe my ex will come back to me. But maybe I will have to tell him he's too late and skip off into the sunset arm in arm with some other scrummy man and leave him behind to realise what a moron he is.