You can never win

It's been a few days since I wrote here hey? That is because my life is now officially dull. I think it's a case of, I have a random burst of interesting-ness for a while then I tend to sink into the background of normality just like everybody else. Maybe I should try and create some drama... God, I moan when there's stuff going on and then I moan when there is nothing going on.

Elsewhere, not a lot to report really. Not spoken to my ex. Well, apart from accidentally emailing him about my upcoming party. He was on the 'attending' list and I sent an email to all the 'attendees' including him. Then I scrolled down the names to find him in my contact list next to a rather interesting profile picture of him getting very close face-wise to some girl. A very ugly girl at that. And that's not spite, she was damn ugly. Unless it was a guy, I wouldn't be surprised, it wouldn't be the first time that's happened. Either way, I just laughed it off. Some people never change, which is funny because he got so arsey about me writing that he was still a man whore when he quite clearly is. I don't like to brag, but I am always right. Needless to say, he has been swiftly removed from my guest list. Because I'm a child and so he isn't coming to my party because I don't like him anymore. Juvenile yet simple.

I have also started speaking to yet another guy from the dating site I mentioned the other day (these dating site things are great. AND they're FREE! Who knew?!) Anyway, he is slightly older than me. Like, 9 years older. As in I am 20 and he is 29... 29 as in, almost 30... He has two children, one is his, one isn't. He used to live in my town but lives just up the road now. He seems a nice guy. I may even meet up with him if my hectic lifestyle allows it. Who knows. All I do know is that I need a much more mature guy. Guys my age are immature, selfish and basically, just idiots. I need a REAL MAN. One who's life doesn't revolve around his skanky mates and going out clubbing with slags but does know what 'commitment' means in a sense other than that of a commitment to alcohol or pulling mingers. So, I figured I should set my sights a little higher and find somebody who is on my wavelength, has actual life experience AND knows how to respect me. Hey, I might even find him yet. Never say never and all that.

Lucky for me I was again subject to the slow torture that is tumble tots today. I really struggled not to laugh as some little boy who was about one was sat on a foam shape and comically just fell off sideways, comepletely rigid with no means of attempting to stop himself. Again I had to convince Grace she shouldn't climb up the slide but she learnt the hard way when this time it was her that got kicked in the face. She gave the girl who did it the filthiest look. Definitely her mother's child. And there's always that one kid, every single time without fail, who tries to steal Grace's cup. This kid blaitently had her own. Yet she walked up with a complete air of confidence and just picked it up so naturally I took it back. Ten minutes later she came back to me with a cup she had stolen from somebody else and handed it to me. I did tell her it wasn't mine. But she actually insisted I have it so I took it. I assume it was a kind of peace offering for the earlier misunderstanding. She then left and physically jumped on some poor unsuspecting child who was playing innocently on the mats. Thankfully me and Grace managed to both leave in one piece.

And that is pretty much my week so far. Other people have had more drama than me this week. My auntie found out my uncle was cheating on her with someone from work so she packed up and moved back down south to her mums and taken my cousins with her. That's REAL drama. Although to be fair, not really the kind I want in my life. Been there, done that. I suppose on the upside, at least he was cheating on her with a woman rather than, like in my case, he was cheating on me with a man. Mind you, I don't know which is worse. Anyway, it's a friday night, it's 11.30, I have been in bed since 10... This all screams 'SAD' so I suppose I might as well live up to it and just go to sleep now. Night!